Hey there! If you’re reading this, chances are we don’t know each other. I’m Ashley. I want you to keep reading. If you do, I need your help. What a weird way to start a personal manifesto, right?
Let’s get straight to the point – I don’t believe I am a very talented person. I pursue my education because it’s valuable to me and I enjoy learning and growing. Sometimes it’s almost unhealthy how much I’l stretch myself to do something new and different. I’m going into Project Management if that gives you an idea. However, I’m not a creative. I’m not one who sits down for hours and has sketch after sketch of this graphic or logo or artistic piece that I just envision. I don’t lie awake in the dark wondering how my ideas can be more popular or accepted. I don’t wake up in the middle of the night and write down things I was unconsciously thinking about. I can’t create something iconic on the first try, and I just plain and simple don’t have great ideas. I don’t have a passion yet, and I still might not in the near future.
It’s taken me basically my whole life to learn the things I now know about myself. And you might be thinking – Hey that’s everyone, so congrats your situation isn’t special at all. That could partially be true but listen here for a hot second. I grew up on the central coast of California where my Dad became a successful business owner and my protected childhood life might’ve seemed near perfect to some. Under unfortunate circumstances, my angel mom suffered nearing 18 months of paralysis due to a brain virus secondary to her Multiple Sclerosis condition. She sadly lost her life at the age of 39, but instilled things in to me that help me pursue things I’m not good at. One of those things was “We do hard things”. I do things that are challenging to not only my intellect, but my self perception. This puts me in a vulnerable spot emotionally when design requires merciless criticism. I pursue these things because I can – because I’m not lying in a bed unable to control my muscles and staring at the ceiling all day. I do things I’m not good at because I hope to one day find a true passion. I do things that will never get public attention because I am mentally and physically capable of doing that. Did it occur to you that everyone accomplishes things because they can?
I started taking photos when I was required to take the Digital Imaging class here on the BYU-Idaho campus, and learned that I loved taking portraits and I actually wasn’t terrible at it. I took some roommate engagement photos, family photos, infant photos, senior photos and even some studio and model photoshoots. Sure, in comparison to other competition in the Southeastern Idaho area I’m probably pretty amateur; but it’s something I quite enjoy. I’m actually not even a Communications major. When my mom went to college, she majored in Journalism. Which I also quite enjoy, and I’d like to think I’m quite good at. So here it goes.
I’d like to start a photo-journal. I’d mostly like to see how many people I could get interested in this. This would be different than a personal blog of any type. I want to combine my love of photography – notice I didn’t say talent- with my strong skills in writing. Hardly anyone reads things longer than a few sentences on the internet. Shoot, if you made it this far then maybe I can get your feedback. I want to see if I can change that in a small, yet meaningful way; and not just meaningful to me. I already have an Instagram photography platform where I could gain traction through the visual aspect, and add links to my blog where people can read.
If you made it this far, congratulations! You win my respect. Let’s bake a cake or something.
Here’s some of my past photography work. In the future I hope to impress you in ways you never expected.